I know i can go out and essentially guarantee depression-removal by attending the Golgotha Labour Day Eve thinggy. If i do that, i can't be out for very long, because I need to get up early-ish tomorrow, before 8am. It would basically be 45 mins of driving, an hour of dancing and fun times, and 45 mins of driving back. Total cost... hard to calculate with current utterly unprecedented petrol prices.

On the other hand, i can stay home tonight. I can't think of anything to do. I can almost guarantee some level of depression, and my evening will essentially be "how can i distract or numb myself just enough so that i don't notice the time passing." It may be difficult to sleep, so the need to be up early will remain unaffected. (In fact, I will probably be up much later tonight with insomnia, without the depression-removal (and physical exhaustion) of Golgotha to allow sleep.) But the total cost would be zero dollars.

It seems like a no-brainer, but my Austudy payment tomorrow is almost guaranteed to be about half what i need to keep being able to attend uni (on account of how my partner makes money, and naturally, i own her and make sure that she pays me half of everything she makes). So i have to ration my money out, and I could save it for next Saturday, when DV8 may be on and I will be able to stay out ALLLL night instead of just an hour or so.

Sigh.

I need to not live here anymore.

I also need a weather machine.